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This picture was not there when you were here, nor was it even printed. We never took many photos through the years of our friendship. The photo's we did have were ones taken is jest and would result in either one of us screaming in embarrassment. I could get upset about this, but I dont... For it reminds me that we were troublesome and to even have a regular photo together could be a task.
The picture I have on my ledge is the most beautiful picture of you and I. We are both so incredibly happy and I love that we are make-up free. I also love that you can see 'real' happiness and excitement in our eyes and mouths.
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When I am alone I always light a few candles and the candle nearest your picture always burns the longest and brightest. I find this extremely comforting, yet annoying as I keep having to wait a few days for it to burn out so that I can buy another set of candles. I suspect it is you playing naughty tricks on me. *smile*
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I am going to your home soon to view all the photos they have had printed. I am so excited, as they'll be lots you intended to show me and some we had together recently I have yet to see. Particular photos are standing at the forefront of my mind and others I'm sure I'll be pleasantly surprised by.
One set of photos I am anxious to see are of us all during your last hospital stay. I am so desperate to see them yet I know I'll be terribly upset...
You were so amazing, you were fighting for each day and still trying to ensure you made us comfortable and happy. You sat yourself up and smiled at the camera with no fear in your eyes, posing for a last photo with each of us. You even asked for one with your 2 favourite girls, your sis and I... I also have a vague recollection that you made them take two shots just to ensure it was right. I am so proud and and honoured that it was I that took the last family photo of you all cuddled together. It had been 2 months previously that I had forced your family to have one, obviously under much happier circumstances. It was so incredibly hard not to cry, but the tears I shed for you at the time were in pure admiration and love I have for you. I am sure when I see these pictures I will cry for the same reasons but this time your mum can join me. She has thanked me with tears in her eyes for forcing you all to have these extremely precious family photographs. I'll be sure to have my tissue at the ready.
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