Heart Ache

I guess losing you is never going to be easy. At this time I remember the last everythings. Right now would be around the last time you ever went outside not knowing that would be the last time.

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I miss you so much, my life has changed, my feelings have changed but my love for you hasn't. If anything it has grown. I am now in a new job which is impersonal, I travel 3 hours a day and my train of throught is constant. I am enjoying it, it is giving me a new focus and testing me daily.

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Today my heart is burning, I miss you incredibly and wish I could have a hug or just five minutes time with you to see you are ok. No words need to be passed, because I think that would be too much.

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I am starting to put my thinking hat on again to raise money and awareness again. I am sorry it has taken me so long, I just needed to be selfish and gather myself. I am now wanting to celebrate the memory of you and perhaps set up a site for you so that any fundraising achievements can go directly there. I would love to know how much money gets raised just in your memory in my lifetime.

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I am not sure whether I'll ever be able to read the previous posts on here. It really does go to show how hard bereavement is.

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